Not really enjoying this. I know, it’s me, Tete, the always positive girl, the one that looks for the bright side of things… but not this time. We’re all allowed to take a break of ourselves every once in a while, aren’t we?. 
I just miss Billy so much… I kinda wish I wasn’t here… In [...]

Yesterday we arrived to Croatia. I’ve been to this part of the country a couple of times before and always enjoyed it lots. It’s such amazing place, full of exciting things to see and do. This time however we’re here for this Garden Zadar festival, something I’m not that excited about as the line-up is so electronic.
I miss Billy [...]

So we came back and they didn’t replace us they reward us! We are going to a festival in Croatia. I love Croatia. I spent quite a bit of time on my dad’s yacht, sailing all around the islands of the dalmation coast. It is so beutiful.
 But these ######## won’t let Billy come along. I [...]

I lost control
My body’s moving, 
On its own.
I watch myself
Walk away.
A poor spirit
Took my place

So Jude had a car accident (if you can call it that) and now he’s moany and demanding…

Now the #### hits the fan. We must go back to London right now and face the firing line with the producers. They say if we don’t that they have others to replace us. I don’t mind either way now. Me and B have had such a magical few days down here, just being together, [...]

There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for [...]